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Thursday, January 4th, 2007
6:39 pm
I didn't even know this shit was still here nutzzZZzzz.....

Current Mood: nauseated
Thursday, March 10th, 2005
7:03 pm
i go to amsterdam tomorrow goodbye
Sunday, February 27th, 2005
6:03 am
Man...... I think i've been drunk for the last month..... Drunk with pretty girls none the less \m/!?
Friday, January 21st, 2005
7:43 pm
So... What now?
Monday, December 27th, 2004
8:53 pm
Now I've been in my first car accident. Christmas night my friend rolled his car on a wet road. We're all ok, car is totalled. Fun times? Everyone asks about alcohol. No drugs involved, but I guess it's the like O.D. thing. Me and my friend were sober. People always assume. Oh, well it's life...

Dear Journal,
Monday, November 15th, 2004
2:38 am
Saturday night a person I knew (not quite a friend but I knew him pretty well) overdosed in my apartment while My room mate and I watched a movie. When it was over we found him dead. I guess I'm still in a bit of shock. I've lived here maybe month... I moved into the aftermath of a hurricane, got really sick had my tonsils removed, and now someone dies in my apartment. I'm not sure what to think of all of this my mean the hurricane isn't a big deal, and i guess the tonsils really arent an issue anymore either, the death thing kinda gets me, which i suppose makes sense. I wish I had more friends to talk to. I mean i live with my best friend, but it's different, he experienced it with me, and i think since he knew the person alot better than i did he's more shaken up than i am. I dont know...
Friday, September 17th, 2004
7:25 pm
The gods must not want me to move to florida, that or theyre getting paid back for last election? Either way it throws a wrench in my plans to move in the begining of october. Fuck me.

Dear Journal,

One day I will move out of my parents house.
Friday, August 27th, 2004
10:42 pm
"Florida isn't my first choice" What will I learn living out on my own? I hope alot. Today I winked at a girl. I can honestly say I have never ever done that before, so what does that mean?

Dear Journal,

Friends may come and go, and boy does my tooth hurt.

Current Mood: slow
Tuesday, June 8th, 2004
12:33 am
work, play hockey, play guitar, work, play guitar, play hockey, watch adult swim, work, live journal while watching adult swim.

Dear Journal,

My life is so exciting.

Current Mood: apathetic
Friday, April 30th, 2004
9:25 pm
Zoloft... What am I doing?
Sunday, April 25th, 2004
1:13 pm
Can anyone else at least relate?
I'm not down with the government. I especially hate the way the country is being ran right now. We're supposed to be living in a "democracy". What's with the double standards? Why the hypocrisy? Why the LIES? I know these aren't new issues, but I just can't grasp how people can sit by and let it happen. It may sound ridiculous, but why can't their be a revolution? Well maybe not a revolution, but change. A real change. The current president, and all of the ones before him have blatantly lied to us. How can you just stand by and watch as our government keeps taking away from our freedom, in our so called "free" country? Why do we let it happen? Are you too scared, or just blind? Some people would say my opinion doesn't matter, and that i'm wrong. Maybe they're right? But if It was the way they it should be, then they would be the ones who are wrong. I like to think that if I don't ignore all of the problems and I speak up, that it separates me from the rest of you sheep, and maybe it will help a cause. No one really speaks up in this country anymore and if they do they aren't taken seriously. Do you care? I do, but I need your help to change things. We don't need a new form of government we just need to reform the government we already have. Put more power in the hands of the people. Don't let old rich white guys that care for nothing but themselves run your life. We need real people to take charge, and take care of our issues. I know you will never have a perfect system, that's life, but I think we are capable of knowing what's better for us. People need to open their eyes and open their minds, and most importantly listen. Laugh all you want, call it a joke. All I know is that I'm tired of living in a country that is "free". Wouldn't it be a lot nicer if I could call it FREE with out lying to myself? I don't like feeling the way I do, because for the most part it's a struggle. Everyone has different views and opinions. Though, I hope we can all find that we have a bit more in common than we would like to admit, and that thing being freedom. We all want personal freedom. Freedom to do what ever we want. The only boundary I set on freedom, is that we do not harm others. Sometimes I hate caring so much, but I can't help it.

Current Mood: aggravated
Friday, April 23rd, 2004
10:35 am
I'm Manic, and I think I need to smoke pot? This substituting alcohol for marijuana does not work! Not only is alcohol crap, but It's turning me into an alcoholic (funny kind of but not really). Something I am totally not proud of. Not that I was proud of being a pothead, but at least I thought it gave me some balance! Whether or not it's true was never a concern, call it the placebo effect? What else has been bothering me....? Hmmm.... Well I guess My "girlfriend" has been bothering me. I'm tired of living 123123213 miles away it's getting really old. I mean Moving was great, aside from being separated from her. And why do I feel all this stress and pressure? I think I know why, but then I question it, but then questioning it makes it worse. Hmmm... I'm 20, I live with my parents, I dropped out of Highschool, I've gone to one and a half semesters of college, I've only held crappy dead end jobs that don't pay shit, and I have never had any of those longer than 3 months. I thought that maybe with out the weed that I didn't ( nvoluntarily) I would think clearer? I don't that has happened. I wanted to get into college ASAP when I moved here, but then my parents started shoving different ideas into my head, go get job for now you need a car. Stepdad: "When I was your age I didn't know what I wanted to do either". Well I did know until you made me doubt myself. It feels like I'm back at square one. My mom wants me to go see a shrink, she already has an appoitment for the 29th. I'll go but i'm still weary about getting medicine, and all the times I've been to psychologists and psychiatrists it's been crap, or maybe it's me? They always seem to have their own agenda. Last lady i went to see, said i had a drug problem as soon (and I mean not a millisecond after I said it) as I said, I smoked pot. Then she starts saying I'm manic depressive which maybe I am so she sends me to a psychiatrist to get medication, and when I get in there he tells me that he doesn't think I am manic depressive but he still hooks it up with like 3 or 4 different med's? and to top it off, one of the the pills he prescribes is for manic depression, well sort of it's called Lamictal and was originally a drug used for seizures but yeah... oh well. I'm getting bored of myself and ranting about pointless crap that I will forget about in a day or two but I suppose I just needed to use My LJ? what else do I say

Dear Journal,

I guess Life could be a lot worse?

Current Mood: confused
Wednesday, March 17th, 2004
11:41 pm
People need to come together.
Thursday, February 26th, 2004
4:59 am
I'm fucking lost again. I mean I have no car, no friends, no resources, in a new place at a different time. So what the hell? It's so hard to keep my mind on just one thing right now. I need a job, I need to go to school, I need some friends, I want a new guitar, I want to move into our new house, I want to ride my bike, I want to play hockey, I need to live healthier (I think?)I I I I..... . Starting over will be cooler after I am done with the starting over part and I've moved on to the... umm... part thats after starting over when you're a little bit more grounded and established, I don't even have an address right now. I still need to get used to the weather and altitude. Colorado... I never thought I would live here. I want my other computer this laptop is better but the other computer is a lot more comfortable to type with. Blah blah blah....

Dear Journal,

My neck is sore.

Current Mood: anxious
Tuesday, February 17th, 2004
7:07 pm
I live in colorado
Thursday, December 4th, 2003
4:26 am
It SEEMS like you have to take time to really decide on what you want to do with your life. But don't you only have two real choices when it comes down to it? And that decision is not whether you live or die... It's whether you choose to prolong your existence (the natural course of life which is death) or except your fate early in life...

Current Mood: None
Tuesday, December 2nd, 2003
8:59 pm
Since when does Nick have a girlfriend!?!?

Dear Journal,

Things have been pretty good in life.

lovers walking through my path
making my day shorter
in a life already long and far gone

Current Mood: content, but not satisfied
Wednesday, October 22nd, 2003
12:53 am
I'm glad I have LJ so I can write about how I got rejected by a girl who likes me... Good thing I don't like girls, or I would probably feel a little shitty right now... hmmm.... yeah...

Dear Journal,

Life just threw me a nice, juicy fastball right down the middle, and I completely missed the swing, and hit my self in the head with the follow through of the bat.

Current Mood: empty soda can
Friday, October 17th, 2003
2:49 am
Well people... I am going to amsterdam! November 20 something... i leave this town and its people behind! well i am going with a "friend" from this town but she doesnt count? but yeah, I also get to leave the country/bush! who ever is reading this should be happy for me. "friend" i say!? yeah friend with quotations, see this girl just admitted to me that she umm... for lack of better words "likes" me, now listen.... she said she likes me BUT we are friends and it could get awkward, and we have other mutual friends that might not like the idea of us together, and then i'm moving in 4 or 5 months. Maybe i'm retarded, but I think we should explore the relationship area and say fuck everything else... But is this a situation where, it's better to be safe than sorry? or... seize the moment and run with it, because you never know what might happen? Life... What does one do? I need to talk...

Dear Journal,

A girl has feelings for me, but she says they are forbidden. All I have been doing is thinking about what she said. What more can I do?

OK all of that up there was lame. I just need to talk to her, and not be such a shy lame bastard! Right!?

err... yeah right...

Current Mood: anxious
Friday, September 5th, 2003
3:19 am
3 in the morning, i cant keep my mind on anything, i dont feel good mentally, im not sure what i'll do, i wish i had someone to talk to right now

Dear Journal,

I have nothing to say right now, but i did feel like typing that.

Current Mood: confused
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